Have you ever thought about suicide?
October 14th, 2008
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Have you ever thought about suicide? What do you feel got you to that point of feeling you wanted to end it all? (remember, at Anonymousmom.com when you respond, you do NOT have to leave your name, email or link to your blog… but if you want to - feel free) |
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Yes….I hate to admit it, but I have. Recently, too. Mostly when my husband mistreats me or we are in a fight. I’ve never acted on it—made any attempts, but I fear one day I might. My kids are the one thing that has kept me from giving up.
I do alot lately. I feel that my husband hates me, my kids don’t respect me and sometimes I just want to end it all. I have 5 kids with 3 different fathers. I know that sounds really bad but my past is screwed up. The only thing that keeps me alive is the fact that they would all be seperated and I do not want them to live like that.
I think about it all the time. I am a single mother with two boys, and I have been unemployed for seven months. The job market sucks, and I feel like I am NEVER going to find anything. I’ve been turned down for every interview I’ve been on, I’ve gained weight, and I just feel like a worthless piece of crap. My mother is paying my rent because of the boys, but at the first of the year she won’t be able to anymore. It all looks very dire. I have thought many times about giving the boys to their fathers and just ending it. Everyone would be so much better off. I’m not contributing anything.
many times, although I haven’t actually attempted since being married. I only did that in high school. My husband knows and tried to help me, but what help is there when you feel like it would be better off to just be gone?
Every Day for years and years. When I was a kid I use to keep a stash of pills hidden in my room. Looking back they worst they would have done was give me a really bad stomach ache but at the time it was my way out when things were finally too much. The only time I haven’t had it on my mind was for three years I was in England. I don’t know what it is but rainy days cheer me up.
many times. I was very depressed throughout high school and college. I still think about it from time to time and unfortunately it has increased since I had my baby 3 months ago. The worst part is that I have no reason to be depressed/suicidal. Some people have bad things happen to them that makes them feel this way. I had a rough childhood with an alcoholic/verbally abusive mom, but the last 4 years I’ve had no real good reason to be depressed. And I feel real bad for having thoughts of suicide since my son was born because this should be the happiest time of my life.
Yea I have and even tried and failed a few times. After many years and many drs finally found that it was something chemically wrong now that I know its there I can control it alot better partially with medication. Anyone that has ever felt this way should talk with a dr cause its not normal as some put it and it could just be caused by a chemical imbalance. Wish I had found it out alot sooner.
I had very bad post-partum depression, and I thought everyone would be better off without me. I felt like since I had done my job (having a baby) there was nothing left for me to do.
I lost a fiancee in a car accident where he was thrown from the car 50 feet, was airlifted and was bought into the hospital with internal and external injuries and in a coma.He woke up and a few days later suffered cardiac arrest and they lost him too long.He stayed in a coma for a while and woke up from it but had really bad brain damage. I had to do everything,his family did nothing but I had no rights as we were not married.He had motor functions that got better as I got him into different places to help brain injured people.He slowly started losing his motor functions,was in constant pain,had constant infections that the antibiotics did not work after a while,the body becomes immune. He went from 240lbs big muscular to 120 lbs and the hard part was he knew what was going on and could not speak at all and tell someone,my tooth fell out,my back hurts….it was horrible to watch for over 1 yr.I was there for along time and almost had a breakdown over it.
I have never been the same since then,I called him 2 minutes before the accident and told him that the next day thanksgiving i did not want to celebrate it and that I wanted to leave work early and take a nap and act like the day never happened and nothing was wrong.Within 5 minutes I got the call that he was being airlifted and I left work and as I pulled up to the hospital the helicopter was landing in front of me.It was like a bad dream and I was in it. I was bought in and they put me in a room by myself and they didnt even know who he was for along time.
I dont know why when he had cardiac arrest and they lost him for over a5 minutes why they didnt stop.They knew and told me after that he would not wake up and he did and instead suffered for over a year.
I am not the same person and my life has gone wrong since then.I am losing my home, I have the worst health and heart conditions. I am about to foreclose and cant keep a job,although I am starting one next week.My husband was so great after I met him and he knew what happened to my fiancee,but now has dragged me even further down that sometimes I just dont want to live.I just want to crawl in a corner and I need someone to help take care of me.
I have a 26yr old and he is the only reason I live.He does not see his dad and I am his life although he does well on his own.I am scared and broke and miserable.I gained weight,feel horrible and use to be nice weight,pretty,and always happy….not any more.
I tryed meds from dr.s and it has not helped .I just cant get over what I went thru and wish my life would change already,and get better for once.I have had nothing but bad luck,it never changes,I ask god to help and keep asking. I am about to give up and yet days I get up and want to conquer the world.God help me….Kat
I have thought about it many times since I was a teenager, I have never been lucky in my life, I have a family that is never together, most of the times I feel so lonely… I am living with someone I don’t really love and the one I do love just got married… Life just is not fair…..
Hell yes. Constantly. I am constantly in emotional turmoil, ever since I was about 11. It seems like this is my mental condition and nothing will change that. I’ve tried pills, I’ve tried changing my lifestyle, I have tried everything, and none of it does anything. It gets worse and worse and my son does not have his father, only my parents, and I fear what would happen to him if I died, accidentally or otherwise.
I wish I was a normal person, with normal feelings, with normal thoughts. It is mentally exaughsting and I just want this to stop. Death sounds welcoming. I wish I could be a better mother to my child, who so needs me.
Yes, on several occasions, though thankfully, not recently. A lot of things happened in my teenage years which lead to depression (It runs in the family, so there’s a big chance I would have been diagonised regardless of what happened in my life) I attempted suicide twice, but thankfully wasn’t successful. I now take daily medication to help battle my depression. Do I like having to take a pill to feel normal? Nope, but I look at it like any other disease. Would a diabetic refuse to take insulin to feel normal? Then why should I feel any different about taking medication for my disease?
It’s a matter of recognizing the feelings your having aren’t normal and getting the help you need. There is hope for anyone who suffers from depression to lead a normal life.
when depressed in the past, yes I had thought of it but never tried. Oddly enough the other day while I was driving home I suddenly had this thought flash through my mind:
“what if I just turned the wheel quickly and crashed into all those trees”
It rather took me by surprise…
I have always thought about suicide as young as 9 years of age. I dont know why at times but I learned that my great grandfather killed himself so maybe its hereditary.
I have thought about suicide since childhood, I dont ever think I would ever do it, but there have been two times in my life that I came close, I guess the only thing that keeps me from actually doing it, is the connection and love I have for my family. Depression and suicide run in my family, and I know the pain I would cause, so I simply endure it, even when I wish it would all just end…
i really dont think there is any help for me and believe after a life off trying to find answers and a cure its time for me to leave this life. tried everything, all the medical help there is, medication, drink , smoking, have spent life truing to find a cure. I have no will to live and just want this forty years off pain to end. FORTY FIVE NOW AND HAD THESE FEELINGS SINCE I WAS FIVE
NO, I havent thought of my own suicide, but prayed daily for my husbands. Being with a bi-polar, mani-depressesive and angry man is no fun.
I have been told and made to feel like i was/am worthless. By my parents,boyfriends,ex husband and now my husband. The only man that really loved me is gone (grandfather). My husband cheated on me and in revenge,i kissed another man. My life has never favored me in the love department. Been on meds for my depression and nothing really brightened up. I had attempted taking my life n my teenage years. After my children were born,i had to keep it together for them. No father,single mom,divorced due to extreme abuse. I never had what it took to be truly loved as a person. Sometimes,if it werent for my children,i would have left this place years ago. I even think now,my children are now taken care of by my husband (bad husband,great dad figure). We are having financial issues and the hubby is in Iraq. When he returns and i can come to my goodbyes,i have thought of taking my life,so the life insurance on me could help my family,so he can wander freely,so my small children can have things and opportunities they wouldnt have with me. But then i feel selfish and bad and the thoughts go away. Im trying to do better but,im plagued,why am i so bad? what did ido wrong not to deserve love from my husband,or anyother man for that fact of the matter?
Yes. I’m 90 lbs over weight. Husband and I split up and I have been unemployed for over two months. I feel so alone. The only reason I get out of bed is for my little girl. And I feel like such a bad mom. She deserves to get out of the house. I am embaressed to leave the house because I do not want anyone to see how big I’ve gotten.
no i never ever thought about suicide!! i hate any kind of pain, be it emotional, physical, or just pain in general. even in the worst times of my life, ending it was never an option. The thought never crossed my mind even when i was depressed for 6 months. I never wished for anyone to die either. everyone desrves to be on this planet, and we all have the same rights. suicide solves nothing.
i have 5 kids with 5 babydaddys, a total of $30.00 childsupport per week (yes 30, not 300) a mom that hates me, a father that has ,yet again, abandoned me. failing health, but no money for healthcare, and not a friend in the world……
i am 34 years old, i have tried several times but failed everytime. lol seems to be the way it is for me…i fail at everything. i have been very suicidal since i was 13 years old. i am male i have 7 kids, andf they ean the world to me. hwen do you know that they would be better off if youre gone? i dont wanna go on, i just dont have it in me. i just wanna stop breathing so my pain can stop… i know that seems selfish but when can it be about me?
As a child I was bullied very badly. I had mild weight problems (i was only a few pounds heavier then I should have been) and was constantly called fat. The day I thought about suicide was when I was called an ugly fat cow who deserved to die a slow and painful death, and punched really hard in the stomach. When i got home I got my dressing gown cord and tied it around my neck, but when I heard my mum singing I knew I couldn’t do it to her.
wow, i guess just about everyone thinks about it. well, me too. i know i will never do it, but when scanning my life for solutions to my problems… the idea is often there.