You swore you wouldn’t be this way..
June 1st, 2008
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What do you do or say that your parents did that you swore you would never do as a mother?4 Responses to “You swore you wouldn’t be this way..”
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Lose my temper and strike out (verbally) in anger, sometimes saying things that can never be unsaid
Abuse. My father was very verbally abusive, emotionally abusive, and a bit physically abusive. I swore I’d never be like that. But I find myself yelling at my kids when a sweet reminder would work better. I find myself punishing them physically when I shouldn’t. I’m terrified that I’m going to ruin my kids’ childhoods and lives if I can’t get my act together.
I tune my kids out when I get overwhelmed. I’ll go into the computer room and let them play, but I don’t give them the one-on-one attention they should get, sometimes I realize I’m doing it and sometimes I don’t. My parents did this a lot and I always wanted more time with them, but they always seemed pretty preoccupied and I don’t want my kids to feel that way.
I’m probably worse than all of you. I had so much love for my son throughout his infancy. Then he grew up and was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. He is still in diapers at 4 years old, which has just pushed me over the edge. He has around 10 accidents a day and I can’t believe I find myself so fed up and yelling dummy and retard at my own son! I am so ashamed, I have never lost my temper like that with anyone but my own son who I love more than anything. I turned from a doting over-protective mom into a momster.